Pip Brown was much less than a calendar year into motherhood when the mole on the again of her leg started out to itch. The synthpop musician acknowledged as Ladyhawke had already been by means of the wringer with postnatal melancholy now another lifetime-altering predicament was on the cards. “I’d often acknowledged it was there,” claims Brown of the mole, “but when I bought expecting I seen that it experienced started out to improve and was performing bizarre.” Just after staying distracted by what she calls “new baby haze”, Brown last but not least experienced the mole examined and was right away advised that it was probably melanoma.
“I realized it was heading to be negative,” she remembers, speaking from her home in Auckland, wherever she life with her now three-year-aged daughter Billie Jean and her wife, the actor and director Madeleine Sami. “I just had this ill feeling.”
Brown’s worst fears were realised. She was identified with a Clark’s amount-four melanoma, meaning the most cancers had attained the bottom layer of her skin and the chance of it spreading was superior: “There have been a pair of weeks in which they could not tell me if I was going to dwell.” But right after what felt like the longest wait around of her existence, Brown was told by her specialist that she was in the crystal clear. That it had not spread was a little something of a wonder. “The level of it was so poor that it kind of must have long gone everywhere you go,” she says, still sounding in a condition of disbelief.
That Brown’s new album is so utterly joyous, then, is no surprise. Time Flies is a glitzy reminder of everything that built Ladyhawke one of a kind when the New Zealander first emerged with her self-titled debut album in 2008: a sumptuous rush of electronica that is icy great, nevertheless warm and human a celebration of simply just existing.
“I just felt so lucky and privileged to be alive and in a home creating songs,” she beams, even in but yet another lockdown in Auckland. She is in the purple-lit area she works by using as a backdrop for her reside gaming sessions, having started off dabbling as a Twitch streamer in the course of the pandemic just after becoming encouraged by the British songwriter and fellow gamer Shura, who has due to the fact turn out to be a shut good friend. Brown turned obsessed with playing The Very last of Us, Part II, a article-apocalyptic adventure activity with a gay woman lead and a trans character, as very well as sharing the experience with likeminded viewers. “It’s incredible to see on your own represented in a sport,” she states. “Being a female gamer you are so utilized to viewing the feminine entire body represented from the male gaze, feel of Tomb Raider and Lara Croft. But in The Last of Us, they just look like serious women.”
Time Flies is Brown’s fourth album beneath the Ladyhawke title. The 1st solitary, a gutsy disco belter identified as Guilty Really like, owes as significantly to the stomping sci-fi rock of Muse as it does to Donna Summer months. It is deeply personal, also, about Brown’s expertise growing up homosexual even though going to a Catholic university that on a regular basis instructed her any such existence was sinful.
“My sexuality was something that I buried and it delayed me realising that I experienced those thoughts,” she suggests. Despite her schooling, Brown’s mothers and fathers were not religious. Her dad was an atheist and her mum “sort of a hippy”. Still Brown was nevertheless terrified of coming out to them, which she did in her early 20s. “I was definitely terrified about rejection and getting shut out of the family. I cannot even imagine I thought like that, but that is how serious it was. When I ultimately did appear out, they were like: ‘Duh, we constantly understood!’” she chuckles. “No 1 was stunned!”
Brown designed a lot of Time Flies about online video phone calls throughout the pandemic, collaborating with fellow New Zealand pop act Broods, Empire of the Sun’s Nick Littlemore, and producers Tommy English and Josh Fountain. They utilised a shared Ableton display, which permitted Brown to mail stay opinions to whomever she was doing work with. But she will not be swapping the studio for remote recording in the potential. “It was really neat but it is not the identical as getting in the similar area,” she says. “I’m fairly stoked that we managed to get it performed.”
As nicely as motherhood and cancer, there have been other big everyday living variations for Brown considering the fact that the release of her final album, Wild Issues, five a long time ago. Then she experienced been residing in Los Angeles given that leaving London right after the launch of her debut. But when Brown was 5 months pregnant, police shot useless a gentleman on a balcony metres from her Runyon Canyon condominium. Spooked, she decided to depart the metropolis. “I listened to the full detail transpire,” says Brown, who headed property to be in the vicinity of her family. “I was like: ‘See ya, LA!’”
Brown had extensive applied alcoholic beverages to manage the depression and stress and anxiety that experienced plagued her considering that her teens, but while in Los Angeles she at last gave up ingesting. When we communicate, she’s proudly seven a long time sober. Nonetheless on returning to New Zealand, her psychological well being ongoing to deteriorate. By the conclusion of 2019, a thing had to give. “I felt like I was a little bit of a punching bag,” she states. “I acquired to the position in which I couldn’t consider it any additional.”
So for the first time, at the age of 40, Brown dedicated herself to owning treatment. She swiftly noticed an enhancement, switching to Zoom classes when the pandemic prevented in-man or woman meet-ups. “I talked to him previously currently, in fact!” she smiles. She has also began using medication for the initially time: “I was genuinely resistant due to the fact I considered: ‘No, I can handle it on my personal.’”
Now, she suggests with a smile, she’s the ideal she has been in a long time. “On paper, it’s a extended-ass journey to wherever I am now. But, you know, every person receives there in their possess time.”
Time Flies is out now on BMG.